I left?????

I hate being rejected
It makes me regret things
But leaves more space for reflection.
I know life is full of rejection regrets and reflections.
And I bet next week I'll say the same shit.
But for now this is a reflection.
So I'm going to move to the next shit
Cause nothing in this world was giving to by the world
The world is my home n the world is what I have under me
So I'm standing on top of the world

Cause nothing is same unless you keep fucking with lames
And your a reflections of your friends n mate
And as you see I keep wide open circle you come and go as you please
Cause there's so much wrong of me
But you always have the choice to leave and be
Mate wat mate
Lol I mate but him I never been on a date.
So its ok if when if we lay for now
Cause I'll be gone once you close ur eyes and I'm not going to lie that I like you but I also like the color blue, red, and pink.......
But I can't wait for that sunny day
That reflect and finally say I left.

Roller coaster

Its funny how people can walk in the street
And other people are to kiss there feet
They say the most intriguing things just to get your attention
You know what's funny
Now that you have my attention
What are you going to do with it?
Say things that don't make sense
Say things you think I want to hear
Hmmm
Now that I'm listening
I'm thinking
I'm going to give you what you think you want.
Let's see how this works out
1 week later
Oh you don't want that.....
People try to sell themselves
To others
They say there best qualities
And what they do and have done
Sometimes even lie.
I'm maria eujenya perez
I'm at a stand still right now
Not in school nor work
I'm picky
I talk a lot
I love to be on the phone 24/7
My talent is over looked by my lack of hard work
I pick arguments (I'm working on that)
I have a bad temper
I don't like looking in the mirror
I get lazy fast
I drunk text
Just some of my flaws
Now my friend told me once
We don't pick our parents relatives
We don't pick our own friends you become friends due to the time and place etc (school not much of a choice)
You get to choose your mate
I choose you, you choose me
So why is that the hardest thing to keep together?
Why make it hard? And painful?
Same reason why people love roller coaster I guess.

I Confess

I must confess most of the things that I want I do not need
The person I want to be with wants to be with others
It bugs me at times that all my friends are in relationships and I'm not
I think to myself I'm glad I'm not in relationship when I see my friends argue with there boyfriends
I want loss 8 pounds
Most guys that I've dealt with still wants parts smh
Most guys want to rebuild... I'm not with it.
I sing and dance in the mirror I can teach some these performers how to really do it lol
I'm shy at time hehehehe
I like to look at men when they wear sweat pants lmfaooo
I do most of my writing out the blue
I love ryan leslie trey songz drake kid cudi :) :) :) :)
While I wrote I believe the guy next me got a sneak peak of my boobie nasty man!!!!!

My Words To You, You, and You

THIS IS FOR EVERYONE THAT HAS SUPPORTED MY BLOG, MY WORDS, MY LIFE

THANK YOU!!!!
AT TIMES YOU CAN NOT UNDERSTAND THE THINGS THAT I SAY OR THE POINT THAT IM TRYING TO MAKE. I'M GUESSING THATS WHY THEY SAY ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS. HONESTLY YOU GUYS HAVE MADE ME FEEL THAT MY WORDS ARE LOUDER. BY EXPRESSING MYSELF IT HAS ALOUD ME TO MOVE ON FROM MY PAST, YES THE PAST IS APART OF YOU, BUT THERE IS ALWAYS A CHOICE TO REMEMBER. MY CHOICE IS NOT TO HOLD ON TO DEAD WEIGHT NOR REMEMBER THE CHOICES PEOPLE MADE TO BREAK ME, BUT TO REMEMBER THE REASON WHY, THAT REASON WAS I HAD A CHOICE TO DEFEAT OR BE DEFEATED. I'M STILL STANDING.

BOWS AND ROCKETS SOMETIMES HEARTS
MARIA EUJENYA PEREZ



LMFAOOO IM A GEEK LUV YOU GUYS!!!

Motivation

Sometimes I need motivation too.....
This is conversation between Karim Goose Spaulding and I.

ME: hey there,
I need a fav, I'm at a stand still and I need words of motivation. Can you help?

KARIM: YOU need motivation!?! CRAZY LADY...YOU ARE MOTIVATION!!!!
But, I'll play along.....motivation for???

ME: I believe in myself but I also believe I make things hard for me... arghhh you said enough lol I have to just do it. all this is lack of work that's all.

KARIM: We playing from the last lane my lady, so we are hard on ourselves...and honestly what's wrong with making things hard for yourself, think of it as challenging yourself or self motivation...when you grow up in struggle all you know is struggle and I don't know bout you but when I'm not struggling i feel....uncomfortable, like I'm living someone Else's life....being a creative is one of the most difficult things in this world but it's also the most fulfilling because we make it with only what God gave us....Your shit is dope and your a beautiful looking girl, that alone gives you an advantage, but to top that you are have a unique outlook on things the average person overlooks in their daily life...You are right about what you said "...I just have to do it" there it goes. I think after we were facebooking the other day I went thru all your pics and was like this girl is dope! I need her to do something with Colourful Money before she blow and I can't get to her.

ME: you said everything i am and i believe in. and that's dope i take my bow off for you. There is alot of people that don't understand who i am, and that's only because they don't know themselves. your awesome!!!!!

KARIM: you're 100000% correct those that begin to understand themselves are more adept at understanding others...as a matter of fact I'm going to write that down...FIRST ourselves then THE WORLD!!!


The face behind the words

No more will I be a Vitcim, how about you?

Hey Bloggers, Readers, and Watchers
I tend to blog about my life, my thoughts, where I go, who I meet.... I would like to take the time out and blog about something that's important to me. Domestic Violence and Child Molestation. These two subjects are no laughing matter, and if you are a vitcim of these acts speak up and speak out. YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!!!!!! I have been there..... and now I'm free.

The National Domestic Violence Hotline
http://www.ndvh.org/

Child Molestation Research and Prevention Institute
http://www.childmolestationprevention.org/

or Contact me at modeleujenya@gmail.com
we can work threw this and move on...

It's not your fault!!!!!!!

I SEE YOU

my interpretation of you
the sight of you speaks my truth
the thought of you is just a thought
I am not the only one thinking
to miss is to not anymore
so... no more
will I miss you
I care cause I want to
I share cause I want to
I don't want you nor need
I am you
but I my reason for this
has no reason
what is reason with out thought
wats a thought with out thinking
my reason if you
and you to me is the unknown
when I looked into your eyes
I found you.......
and saw things that were new to you
we looked in the mirror at you
I saw you
you looked for you

I am

When you ask a person who are you?
What do you really want to know?
Are you really interested in knowing or do you just really just want to know.......
Without going so much in to depth.
Can you climb out...
Are you ready to be at a stand still of thoughts lost in the words of my thoughts, not just thoughts but reasons.
So, you asked me who am I?
I am what want you to believe I am.
I am what I am,
Am I human? am I really here?
Can you see me?
Can you really..
NO
I show you what I want you to see,
I control your sight and your mind .
Did I just really just say that??
YES
YES I did....
Now what?
Do you know who I am?
What do you think of me?
NO you dont.
And what you think is what i want you to think?
The real me you will or may not know...
Look in to my eyes and tell me what you see?
No really focus on me....
Now keep it to urself now you know who i am?
I'm your first and your last
I mind fucked you....
So I stay on my west side and I show my east side leave you alone with the south side while I rise beyond the north side.


Can you see me?

COLORFUL MONEY

COLOURFUL MONEY- is an experiment in thought, a conscious movement that we’d like to inject into the bloodstream of the world.
-Karim Goose Spaulding CEO of COLORFUL MONEY


What's the first thing you do when viewing a site?
I read... I love to see how people explain their product to the consumer. What you see above, was the reason for this blog. I do not blog about things I do not believe in nor support, and COLORFUL MONEY I believe in. COLORFUL MONEY is more than a brand, line its a lifestyle.
I'll keep it short and simple check out my favorite male and female shirt.


Honzo Piggy Bank (Black)


Piggy Plush

For more info, product check out http://colourfulmoney.net
Its's all about ART and FASHION

OOOhh yeaa Check me out on the blog http://colourfulmoney.net/colourful-money-honey-maria-eujenya-perez/

Eujenya

I am art
I’m not always understood
My art is artistcally created by my soul to enlighten the paths of others
That seem to find themselves in the dark and in the unknown.
Hi my give name is Maria Eujenya Perez and this is your new starting point.
Are you ready?
I’m only here for so long embrace and believe nothing is more powerful
Than self worship.
For those who didn’t understood just should’ve stood.

Summerboy

Nowhere yah were goin' no where fast
Maybe this time I’ll be yours and you’ll be mine
C-c-c-crazy get your ass in my bed
Maybe you’ll be just my summer boyfriend, summer boy

Let’s get lost, you can take me home, somewhere nice
We can be alone
Bikini top's comin o-o-off
Don’t be sad when the sun goes down
You’ll wake up and I'm not around
I’ve got to go oh oh oh
We’ll still have the summer after all

Here are just a few pictures from my summer fun so far.... The way you know you had a blast is when you've have no pictures to prove it. Life is best full of memories, its more sentimental don't you think?